Wish I could just run away.

There are days when I just wish that I could run away from life and come and join you. Life is so hard right now. I feel like No matter what I do its never right. All I hear from you dad is that at so bad, I cant ever do anything right, that im so horrible and its starting to take a tole on me.

Today I made a comment when I got of the phone, and he got all mad at me and took a large package of wood flooring and slammed it into me almost knocking me over.
Then told me it was my fault because im so stupid.

Why can't life just be easy for once in my life??

Today is your first Birthday

But you are not here to celebrate with us. I wish things were differnt, I wish God had not taken you so soon from us. But he did, so we must make the best of it. We have alittle cake for you, and a card for you. We will go back to the hospital that you were born at and tell the nurses thank you for taking care of you. We will give them the dvd from all of your memorial services. We will also got to your second hospital and tell them thank you for taking care of you and give them some of the dvds also.
We are going to light your memorial candle for you, and let a ballon for up to you in heaven. Hope you get it and read the letter that we sent you.

I love and miss you and cant wait to see you again some day.

Love mom